Well, I can start by letting you know my name it's Kristin .. Kristin Cortez and I'm married to my bff :) and what i like to think is the most awesome man alive Nikki !!! Together Nikki and I have one daughter Coraline and this is why I'm taking you back to 9-25-09 this was when our baby girl was born the most life changing day of our lives.
So here it goes...
The alarm went off at 4 am on September 25,2009 as i already was sitting up in bed staring at my husband sleeping so peaceful and without a care knowing that this would be the last time our lives would be as we knew them but i said a prayer got out of bed and went get myself dolled up to go have our baby. We made it to the hospital at 5:15 ish and we were as ready as two people who have never had a baby could be. So i has all hooked up to the IV and our families started to come in... everyone was so excited this was going to be the first grandchild for both my parents and Nikki's. The nurse came in and told me they were going to check me to see how dilated i was... when she was done she said that they were not going to give me anything to make Coraline come faster like they had plan because my body started doing its own. I was so happy but after a while i started to feel bad so i was given some meds that made me loopy and i was saying doing weird things lol well let me speed this up It was 12:30ish pm and i was ready to go and Nikki was in the hospital lunch room so once he came back we started and after lots of pushing and support for my husband,mother, and mother-n-law there she was my little girl 5lbs 15 ounces 18.5 inches born at 1:17pm . Nikki and i cried tears of joy as did our mothers ... it was at that point I did the most important thing of my life or that's what i feel .. giving birth to my daughter had to be the most beautiful thing .. all i could think is "God is so good." after how sick i was while being pregnant and it was all worth it nothing else mattered nothing the pain,tears,worry it was all worth it! Well, after it was all done we noticed Coraline's eye looked very cloudy and it was only the right eye the left eye looked fine besides being a little big from just being born but they told us not to worry about it that it was just a cataract and it could be fixed not a big deal!! So, Nikki and i just enjoyed her and loved on her we were told that an optometrist would come and see her in the morning. I stayed up almost all night just looking at and loving her i was full of joy and fear .. the truth i was scared !!! i took my iPhone i went to google typed in "baby with cloudy eye" so much came up i read everything and almost every website that morning when Nikki woke up i told him" This has to be a cataract i seen pictures and her eye looks just like them." i said this with joy because they told us that it could be fixed easy if that's what was wrong. He told me" babe don't worry yourself with all that right now let's just enjoy our daughter." that's Nikki for you dieing inside with fear but trying to seem all together but i know him to well and said "your scared right?" which he replied with "so much and tears fell from his face." well by then our families started to get to the hospital so we told each other to be strong and we will take about it later.... Later that day someone came in and said the doctor they wanted to come will not be able to come but the pediatric would take a look at it so she came in a little later and told us that she was not 100% but it look like Coraline would not have vision in that eye and she couldn't tell us much but that it was very rare... by this point Nikki and i were so freaked out the thought of our daughter not having vision or full vision it scared us... but i tried to stay positive for most of the day then i had a big break down i wanted to know how this could have happen? what did i do wrong? i keep saying i was so sick!! i did this to her!! it was really hard for me to get it in my head that it's not a blame game no one is to blame this just happen and we have to take care of it and her. They told us that on Tuesday we can go see an optometrist in New Orleans (which is an hour and half from where we live in Louisiana) So Tuesday came and we went to they doctor came in looked at Coraline did some test and told us it's called Peters Anomaly and it's rare he told us there was nothing we could do about it but just make sure nothing happens to her "good eye" because then she would have no vision! So when we got home i went to my favorite place google and i typed in Peters Anomaly and not to much came up i read up on peters and thought that it would be wise to bring Coraline see someone else so that Friday we went to Tulane hospital and seen Dr Gordon and he was lot more positive he told us that he wanted up to try eye drops and to see a cornea specialist so the next wed. we did and he did an ultra sound on her eye and said everything behind her eye is good and that he wanted us to try the eye drops for 3 weeks then go back . That's what we did and it look like the eye drops have helped but the cornea specialist was so negative he made me feel so sad and i would cry after every visit... One day i was searching the Internet for help and i came across blogs and it was women who had a daughter with peters anomaly i was so happy to read how the felt just like me it blessed me!! It was God. It has helped me so much in how Icare for Coraline's eye i talk to them to see what they do with there own children and it has gotten us to where we are today!!
Today ...
Coraline is a Six month old baby girl who is full of life and will make you smile like crazy. Her eye is not all the way clear but we are still using the drops and we are seeing an awesome Dr in Atlanta ( Dr. Lee ) We have made the choice to not put Coraline through surgery because she does have vision in her left eye we didn't think it would be the best thing for her and we have hope that Coraline will be healed!!! We don't want Coraline's childhood to be full of surgery that may not even help her now it does work for some people so i am not saying it's not right it just was not for us. Coraline's eye is getting better and we go back to Atlanta April 2,2010 and I'm praying for more good news :)
i want to start blogging a lot more i feel like it helps me to deal with these things in my life by talking about them.
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