well, i had an amazing birthday thank you to everyone and i have to upload some pictures but today i want to talk about something else but i plan on catching the blog up on saturday!
I have been a mother for almost 9 months now and I have had my fair share of ups and downs. I really want to talk about something that has been on my mind so much the last few days and i feel like maybe if i just share my heart and let it out i may feel better about of all this. Just a note to you if your reading I am not saying anything to hurt any ones feeling or get at anyone i am simply sharing my heart. Okay, so last Saturday I went have breakfast with my mother-n-law and we did lots of talking which is great we needed it.Well, she said something that really hit me in the heart "why do you try to act like your a perfect parent?" okay to be honest i wanted to laugh when she said this because for one I feel like the farthest thing from perfect when it comes to being a mother. Now do i have things that I just don't want my daughter to be around or do yes. I also don't ask people for help or questions about raising Coraline. I find joy in finding things out and having my own style of being a mother. I also have a sister who has a baby who is 5 weeks younger than Coraline and we talk everything baby everyday. Really i just don't want anyone to think that I'm going around thinking I am this perfect mother and that i do things better than anyone because i don't feel that way. I do have my own way of doing things yes,sorry?
I don't take being a mother lightly this is my most important job and I'm blessed to even have a child. THANK YOU LORD! I have days that i could just cry from the stress of having a baby and not only a baby but one with peters anomaly! I'm not the kind of mother who wants her child to be raised by anyone but her! I plan,prayed,wanted this child. I enjoy bringing Coraline everywhere with me and it's not a bother to me .. is it sometimes hard YES! but i still love it!!! I just love being a "hands on" mother .. one of my fears is missing out on anything important in Coraline's life.
I'm not a perfect mother nor do i want people to think i am!!!
I don't always know what to do but i have my God,husband,mom, and the best sister i could ever ask for who support me ALL the way! I am only being the only kind of mother i know how to be.
yeah, i feel better so on to something FUN!!!!
xo
kristin
